Okay so i just got home and I decided to continue last nights post.
Ok so as I said I stopped having anxiety and, I did that with my friendship cicrle growing, ading more friends as I go and DEFINITELY giving my best to stay POSITIVE! But being in love for me had a whole new meaning...because it was the first time ever that I haven't fell in love with some kind of a fictional character or hollywood teen star so I was really happy. You know that I would have tought that I'm gay or something if I didn't fell in love with him...long story short, now I am kind of going to write you down how it all started. Well it was a year ago he fell in love with one of my best friends and they were in a so called relationship. We would constantly have girl talks about him and that made me start thinking about him a looot more than I tought, but I was a nerd, we weren't talking so you know talking about him reminded me about old times when I had a lot of friend and suddenly I started getting fellings about him but now after a long time i learned there isn't even a 1,1% chanse for US so I gave up...but then It WAS LOVE but I tought it isn't really love it is just me being silly and the fact that we always talked about him hahaha so I made myself think that it will fade away during the summer brake...and it did but as it was nearly and end of brake I started thinking about him. So if I wanted to do a favor for myself I had to rebuild my friendships and my character, and I did, it took me some time but I did and that helped my anxiety to fade away also I started talking to HIM a lot more and idk but I think we are some kind of friends now. Yeah well untill a few months ago I didn't want to admit that I liked him but then I said it I finaly said I liked him and than many crazy and insane things happend also got into a fight with him we didn't talk to each-other for a week by the way longest week in my life hahaaahhaha #teentrouble anyways...we kind of went over that but I just don't fell the some way as I used to but you know how people say ,,I fell butterflies when I talk to him" also some say ,,Fuck butterflies I fell a whole zoo when talking to you"...never felt like that, actually did but now not at all so you know i fell like I am probably Giving Up On Him. It had to happend someday aahaahaahah.
I think it is time to end this post...I just wanted to tell you all you don't need a lover to be happy and fullfiled. You only need yourself and family(it means people who like you the way you are, make you happy and always are by your side no matter what) also you need positivity and then you are fullfiled.
I LOVE YOU ALL...SEE YA <3
MARIE
Ok so as I said I stopped having anxiety and, I did that with my friendship cicrle growing, ading more friends as I go and DEFINITELY giving my best to stay POSITIVE! But being in love for me had a whole new meaning...because it was the first time ever that I haven't fell in love with some kind of a fictional character or hollywood teen star so I was really happy. You know that I would have tought that I'm gay or something if I didn't fell in love with him...long story short, now I am kind of going to write you down how it all started. Well it was a year ago he fell in love with one of my best friends and they were in a so called relationship. We would constantly have girl talks about him and that made me start thinking about him a looot more than I tought, but I was a nerd, we weren't talking so you know talking about him reminded me about old times when I had a lot of friend and suddenly I started getting fellings about him but now after a long time i learned there isn't even a 1,1% chanse for US so I gave up...but then It WAS LOVE but I tought it isn't really love it is just me being silly and the fact that we always talked about him hahaha so I made myself think that it will fade away during the summer brake...and it did but as it was nearly and end of brake I started thinking about him. So if I wanted to do a favor for myself I had to rebuild my friendships and my character, and I did, it took me some time but I did and that helped my anxiety to fade away also I started talking to HIM a lot more and idk but I think we are some kind of friends now. Yeah well untill a few months ago I didn't want to admit that I liked him but then I said it I finaly said I liked him and than many crazy and insane things happend also got into a fight with him we didn't talk to each-other for a week by the way longest week in my life hahaaahhaha #teentrouble anyways...we kind of went over that but I just don't fell the some way as I used to but you know how people say ,,I fell butterflies when I talk to him" also some say ,,Fuck butterflies I fell a whole zoo when talking to you"...never felt like that, actually did but now not at all so you know i fell like I am probably Giving Up On Him. It had to happend someday aahaahaahah.
I think it is time to end this post...I just wanted to tell you all you don't need a lover to be happy and fullfiled. You only need yourself and family(it means people who like you the way you are, make you happy and always are by your side no matter what) also you need positivity and then you are fullfiled.
I LOVE YOU ALL...SEE YA <3
MARIE
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