So sorry for not being able to post in a while but it has just been a crazy month for me, school brake and a little bit of time that I had free...I just used for going out parting and having fun.
Now as I apologized if I don't get to the point I'm going to start rambling so yeah.
Well opposite to my other two bloggs this one is as I said is going to be about my life.
I really wanna get dipper in my thoughts and just share every little crazy thing about me hahahah okay, well I never really told anybody this but I think I had anxiety, pretty bad actually. It's like when every single thought you have is bad and you are like a bomb your literarily waiting for something bad to happened, you can't stop it and it doesn't matter how much you try it isn't as simple as they say. It is really bad sh** and you are completely unable to control it...as I said I think I HAD it cuz It is not showing up any more and I am not insanely worried about my family and people I care about, I mean I am always worried about them it is part of my personality but I am just maybe covering it up or somehow learning to control it. It was pretty hard actually, like if my mum wouldn't answer the phone that is where I start panicking and getting all of those so called panic attacks I wouldn't be able to control but even than I could at least pretend that every little thing is ok, which If I didn't stopped on time could've costed me my health and friendships, social life, school and much more...I honestly don't know when it stopped but I think it was when I fell in love with my best friend who I just randomly stopped talking to and he fell in love first with my friend and then with my other best friend sooo situation got complicated and I had no real Idea but I knew I liked him so I started hanging out more and having fun and I became a jock again just like him. That's where we started talking again and so much more but don't know why I fell like that anxiety is coming to the surface again, Why, because my love isn't liking me back so I have a lack of positivity which makes me be negative and that caused first kind of depression and anxiety attacks to come so yeah...there is more but AMA going to go to bed...
XOXO
LOVE MARIE <3
Now as I apologized if I don't get to the point I'm going to start rambling so yeah.
Well opposite to my other two bloggs this one is as I said is going to be about my life.
I really wanna get dipper in my thoughts and just share every little crazy thing about me hahahah okay, well I never really told anybody this but I think I had anxiety, pretty bad actually. It's like when every single thought you have is bad and you are like a bomb your literarily waiting for something bad to happened, you can't stop it and it doesn't matter how much you try it isn't as simple as they say. It is really bad sh** and you are completely unable to control it...as I said I think I HAD it cuz It is not showing up any more and I am not insanely worried about my family and people I care about, I mean I am always worried about them it is part of my personality but I am just maybe covering it up or somehow learning to control it. It was pretty hard actually, like if my mum wouldn't answer the phone that is where I start panicking and getting all of those so called panic attacks I wouldn't be able to control but even than I could at least pretend that every little thing is ok, which If I didn't stopped on time could've costed me my health and friendships, social life, school and much more...I honestly don't know when it stopped but I think it was when I fell in love with my best friend who I just randomly stopped talking to and he fell in love first with my friend and then with my other best friend sooo situation got complicated and I had no real Idea but I knew I liked him so I started hanging out more and having fun and I became a jock again just like him. That's where we started talking again and so much more but don't know why I fell like that anxiety is coming to the surface again, Why, because my love isn't liking me back so I have a lack of positivity which makes me be negative and that caused first kind of depression and anxiety attacks to come so yeah...there is more but AMA going to go to bed...
XOXO
LOVE MARIE <3
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